Tags: magickal diary

firesea: self-portrait


I've been pondering what to write in more detail about my ordination. I could give the specifics of the ceremony (what I remember, anyway - large parts of it are somewhat blurry). I could say how the Mass afterwards felt, which was certainly remarkable, but from a skeptical point of view the differences could as easily be attributed to the large amount of time we spent studying the ritual that morning, or just the heightened anticipation and excitement of the day, rather than any particular mojo imparted by the ordination.

Do I feel different now? Yes and no. I said beforehand that it felt part like a continuation of something that already existed, and part like something wholly new, and that feeling persists after the fact as well.

Any additional authority I have now is minimal at best. I can perform certain ceremonies, but only with the dispensation of my Bishop. I have limited supervisory capacity. Not that much has changed in regards to what I can actually *do*.

For the extent of my time as a Novice (over four years), I have been lifting my hands to the heavens and proclaiming "I am a Priestess." Now certainly I do not need affirmation or approval from any outside source for that to be true. Now, however - the Church, the material manifestation of the energy and archetypes that I choose to work with, has taken my outstretched hands, and said "Yes, you are."
firesea: self-portrait

Here goes

Robes repaired.
New music mix created (just need to burn it).
Cakes made.
Gear inventoried and (mostly) packed.

Tomorrow, I will be ordained a Priestess of Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica. It seems both a small thing, an acknowlegement of what already exists, and a huge, fundamental change, at the same time. I wonder what it will feel like from the other side.
firesea: self-portrait

symbol dissection: Venus

Here's a nifty tidbit I picked up from an astrologer a few years back, on the dissection of the astrological symbols for Jupiter and Saturn.

Jupiter (looks like a stylized open-top 4) is the Moon _)_ followed by the Sun _+_ (a cross is the Sign of Light, equivalent to the Sun in this case).

Saturn (looks like a stylized h) is the Sun _+_ followed by the Moon _)_.

Then I had this *ping* during last night's performance. Venus is the full moon _O_ over the Sun _+_. Especially appropriate since in the full sequence of the Rites of Eleusis, the Rite of Venus comes after the Rite of Sol, and her Temple rises out of the ruins of the Temple of the Sun.

Oh, and the symbol for Earth is the Sun and Moon combined (+ inside O).

I have yet to figure out how Mercury and Mars fit into this (other than the way Mercury emerges in RoV, which doesn't involve the Sun/Moon combination I'm working with here).