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So one of the more common questions I've been getting in recent weeks has been "Are you going to have a natural birth?"

When I say that yes, I'm planning to, the response has nearly invariably been "Whew! You're braver than I was!"

This boggles my brain a bit. I am absolutely terrified of the idea of NOT doing it naturally. I do not react well to situations where I am out of control or don't know what's going on. I'm very good at channeling pain if I am in a good mental place; but put me in a hospital, make me feel ignored or pathologized, tell me to put my feet up and not ask questions, and I become a weeping, quivering wimp. Why would I put myself in that kind of situation unless I absolutely had to?

(And, for disclaimer's sake: no, I'm not opposed to drugs or medical intervention should it become truly necessary, and I've quizzed my midwife on her procedures should that happen; but I also firmly believe intervention is not necessary nearly as often as most people think. I also know full well that my conscious self will not be 'in control' of the birth; but I will have the psychological illusion, at least, of being in control of my reaction to the process, and that will make a *very* large difference in my state of mind.)

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nitemarehipigrl
Apr. 26th, 2006 02:23 am (UTC)
I felt the same way you did about having my son naturally. Whats the big fucking deal anyways! People have been having babys by themselves for centurys! Fuck the doc enless you really really need him, you know, like if the baby is too big and gets stuck LOL. Course, there is something to be said about being dosed up on demeral once the birth is over. I'm sure I made my inlaws think I was a nut when I was high on that stuff. Kisses~!

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