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Jan. 31st, 2005

"Did I ever tell you the story of how I quit smoking?

"Your grandfather and I had decided to quit smoking together. We would have dinner, and then he would rush upstairs, and I would rush upstairs somewhere else. After a few weeks of this I said, 'Look, I know you have a stash of cigarettes hidden somewhere, and I know I have a stash of cigarettes hidden somewhere. This is silly. Let's really quit this time.' He said 'Fine.' And so I took all the cigarettes in the house and took them outside and dumped them in the trash can. And I came back inside and washed the dishes. Then I snuck outside, pulled a cigarette out of the trash can, and smoked it in the shed. And I came back inside and realized that if I could be that sneaky, that dishonest.... And I was so ashamed that I never had another cigarette."


After all these years, I think I finally understand the part of me that comes from her. And it's not a bad thing.

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leroy484
Jan. 31st, 2005 08:12 pm (UTC)
That's pretty funny because ...
that's how I quit using Freebase. I'd been binging surreptitiously - as if everyone around me was deaf, dumb, and blind! - for months, but when my S.O. moved in, I realized that it was just too embarrassing to continue. Funny that I should be glad for the residuals of guilt.
tailerouge
Feb. 1st, 2005 01:01 am (UTC)
Re: That's pretty funny because ...
Yes, guilt can be very therapeutic.
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