October 19th, 2001

firesea: self-portrait


cleaning my office. and I actually talked to a coworker. this is definitely a better dose of the adderall :)
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firesea: self-portrait

stupid documentation

This explanation of fuzzy logic is, erm, not the clearest. I know the basic concepts, but I can't wrap my head around how they're implementing it. Grar.

As much as I hate writing documentation, I am frequently tempted to be a tech writer since I know I could do it about a million times better than most of the crap out there. I've probably posted that sentiment before. Oh well.

And the one person who might know the password to this machine I have to install SharePoint on is MIA, and has been since first thing this morning when he pointed me to the machine but I forgot to ask him then what the password was. Grar. At least I know the machine has the right OS on it, so I won't have to reinstall that.

Feeling a little fuzzyheaded. No Manray tonight.
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Whee. Finally got the password, system configuration all done. The network even worked almost immediately. I feel all accomplished and stuff :)

I keep doing double-takes at myself. Things that used to worry me now don't; things that used to send me screaming into the night now just make me go "hmm. what can I do about that?" I will still go into slacker mode and start playing games, but I recognize it relatively quickly and can actually get myself to stop. My thoughts are more organized. I can do A to get to B to get to C without losing track of where I am. I don't take everything so personally.

And as a result, my stress levels are way down, I'm eating better, I need less sleep, and have reliable mental shields for the first time in my life. I'm actually starting to get some reasonable level of self-confidence.

It's a bloody frickin' miracle. And all because of one teeny-tiny blue pill.
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