April 27th, 2001

firesea: self-portrait

Good morning!

Well, the weather is gray and yucky, but I decided to stay in bed for an extra hour so I'm feeling ok anyway. It's pretty impressive how much of an effect the weather has on my mood. This winter I was so damn depressed - I used to think I had seasonal depression but spending hours under a sun lamp didn't help like it's supposed to.

I wonder - does everyone else spend half their life knowing what they should do to get themselves out of their particular hole but not being able to get themselves to do it? For a while I had a mental keyword that I would use to jolt myself out of worrying about a thing and just DO it, but lately I haven't even been able to get myself to use the keyword. If I start using a keyword for the keyword for the keyword for the keyword it's going to get pretty ridiculous pretty fast.
  • Current Music
    Ozzy Osbourne - See You On The Other Side